All Stressed OUT!
Everything is sooo stressing it's NOTTT funnyyy anymore!! 8 more weeks and my EDUCATIONAL experience is HOPEFULLY going to be OVER!!!! I remember exactly four years ago, I came back home after my FIRST day at university and cried my eyes out because i HATEDDDDD going there and I didnt ever want to end up there!! Now on the other hand, I dont HATETETETE it like I used to but I strongly dislike it and if it wasnt for my friends and especially my friend sho0sh honestly god knows how long I wouldve lasted there! I suspect maybe a week MAX!!! but anyways now the long stressful annoying sickening journey is hopefully gunna END!
I'm having a parttyy on the 26th of April it's exactly what my friends and I need right now! we're all so bored and lazy and we're so sluggish so we need something to get us all so happy and excited so we can work properlyy lol the theme is a "nerd and geek party" so basically everyone needs to come dressed as a nerd or a geek hehe that shud be FUUN!! I bought a cuteeeee dress it's nerdyy but pretty and i already have in mind all the accesories I wanna wear and how I wanna have my hair and make up done! Tables/Chairs/Food and all is ordered and READY! I invited most of the people I wantt now only a couple are left I'll invite them tomorrow or the day after! *I've been saying that for the last 5 days*
Today I was sitting with my dad and he was huggingg mee and telling me how much he loves mee when all of a sudden he held my hand in the SAMEEEE exact way my Grandma used to.. I never mentioned this on my blog but my grandma passed away shortly after the last post I wrote about her.. Allah yer7amha.. so anyways and I didnt want to mention it because its not like he forgot about her but I didnt want to remind him at that point in the day and then out of the blues, he started telling me how He misses my grandmother and he started saying little prayers for her! I started fidgeting with my phone so that he doesnt see me try so hard to push the tears away but since my head was on his chest I know he knew I was going to break down so I pretended like I needed to gooo shower *hehe* I accept the fact that she's gone and I'm not saying WHYYY or it's not like I'm against anything because I KNOW this is everyones fate but..
I just miss her presence
I miss sitting next to her
I miss the way she'd hold my hand and just play around with my rings
I miss the way she'd tell me "fedait roo7ech" everytime I said something nice to her
I miss the way we used to hugg her and smile when she cries because we remembered her with something like food/clothes/perfumes ect
I miss the way she used to get so excited when it's time for her to put 7ena on her hand
I miss this feeling of just knowing it's SOOO safe because she's around
I miss her so much and it feels like everything I'm saying isnt enough but honestly NOTHING can explain or describe how much I miss her..
I love her SOOOOOOOOOOO much and I wish I showed her how much I loved her when she was still here.. I really hope she's in a better place right now.. It's weird but people say you "eventually forget" but I wouldnt be exxagerating if I said not a day has passed by and I didnt think of her especially before I go to sleep.. I love and miss her more than words can ever say.. *sniff*
I'm having a parttyy on the 26th of April it's exactly what my friends and I need right now! we're all so bored and lazy and we're so sluggish so we need something to get us all so happy and excited so we can work properlyy lol the theme is a "nerd and geek party" so basically everyone needs to come dressed as a nerd or a geek hehe that shud be FUUN!! I bought a cuteeeee dress it's nerdyy but pretty and i already have in mind all the accesories I wanna wear and how I wanna have my hair and make up done! Tables/Chairs/Food and all is ordered and READY! I invited most of the people I wantt now only a couple are left I'll invite them tomorrow or the day after! *I've been saying that for the last 5 days*
Today I was sitting with my dad and he was huggingg mee and telling me how much he loves mee when all of a sudden he held my hand in the SAMEEEE exact way my Grandma used to.. I never mentioned this on my blog but my grandma passed away shortly after the last post I wrote about her.. Allah yer7amha.. so anyways and I didnt want to mention it because its not like he forgot about her but I didnt want to remind him at that point in the day and then out of the blues, he started telling me how He misses my grandmother and he started saying little prayers for her! I started fidgeting with my phone so that he doesnt see me try so hard to push the tears away but since my head was on his chest I know he knew I was going to break down so I pretended like I needed to gooo shower *hehe* I accept the fact that she's gone and I'm not saying WHYYY or it's not like I'm against anything because I KNOW this is everyones fate but..
I just miss her presence
I miss sitting next to her
I miss the way she'd hold my hand and just play around with my rings
I miss the way she'd tell me "fedait roo7ech" everytime I said something nice to her
I miss the way we used to hugg her and smile when she cries because we remembered her with something like food/clothes/perfumes ect
I miss the way she used to get so excited when it's time for her to put 7ena on her hand
I miss this feeling of just knowing it's SOOO safe because she's around
I miss her so much and it feels like everything I'm saying isnt enough but honestly NOTHING can explain or describe how much I miss her..
I love her SOOOOOOOOOOO much and I wish I showed her how much I loved her when she was still here.. I really hope she's in a better place right now.. It's weird but people say you "eventually forget" but I wouldnt be exxagerating if I said not a day has passed by and I didnt think of her especially before I go to sleep.. I love and miss her more than words can ever say.. *sniff*
posted by noOnz @ 10:50 AM
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